so frustrating

tryin so hard to save and not spend money, but the figures still don't quite add up! bee ask me why i'm so poor, i dun haf an answer. really! i try and try and try, but savings are still soooo low. couldn't even balance out the books last month! worse thing is i dun really spend. live like a pauper, still IS a pauper! URGH. it's super frustrating. sigh. i secretly wish i dun haf to attend weddings, each wedding costs me like half of my savings for each month. no, it's not that i dun wish my frens well, i love my frens, tat's why i attend and give. but on a longterm.... how to go on like tat. and there are still so many things to save up for.sigh.

there's this faint feeling of why-am-i-working-if-i'm-actually-spending-more-than-i-earn.. =(