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hi everyone.. been MIA-ing from blog for quite some time. a variety of reasons for this. the usual la, tiredness, lazyness, busyness etc. but one of the reasons also being the fact tat i dun wanna be reminded of how upset i am abt my situation when i blog abt it. so not gg to delve into details. suffice to say, there's alot of disrespect i have to tolerate, have to make efforts to salvage situations (courtesy of unprofessional others) and to build up credibility in all aspects. worse still, i'm on my own. 孤军作战! already underpaid, still have to tahan such things. sigh. it's a mix of anger, indignant, resentment, and more anger. wondering alot abt my purpose of being here. why God? why must make me stay?? can't i just walk away?

sigh.